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My shitty last day of the 5th yr overseas!!Hello dear, you have NO IDEA how much I wished you were here................
It was a unlucky day for me I guess. Friends asked me and few others to have dinner tonight. The dinner was planned at approx 6:30. I left home at 6 and arrived at 7. Fu*king my phone battery was flat and I didn't remember either of their phone numbers. I went to the restaurant but didn't find them. That restaurant doesn't accept reservation and there are always a lot of ppl. Anyway, I didn't find them. So I guess I could look around, since the restaurant is near opera house. So I bought icecream and walked around circular quay towards the Opera House. The night was so qutie, the view was so beautiful, the saxophone sounded so sad, and I felt so lonely, but free.
I wanted to go to a bar myself to have a Martini. So I went along George street on the way to train statin back home. I couldn't figure out why it was so quite on a saturday night. So I kept walking before I could find a nice bar. Suddenly, I felt that my ring on my left mid-finger, that my mum gave me which she made out of her earring, disappeared!!!!!!! It had 3 tiny diamonds, but they were not what I worried about. It was the ring itself. It was like my mum to me, and it disappeared!!!!!!!!!! I felt soooooooooo vulnerable like something protecting me was lost!! I was thinking back soooo hard, trying to recall when I could have lost it, but I couldn't, I just couldn't, and I HOPED that I rather left it at home............ But seeing it off my finger was sooooooooooo heart-breaking!!!!!!!! I kept walking but everything was different from a minute ago !! I took the train back to a station where I transferred before I got off before the restaurant. I looked carefully and it wasn't there!! I looked over the bridge and opera house in front of me and felt sad and vulnerable like never before. I cried, hated myself and missed mum!! I didn't know whether I should tell her and if so how should I tell her...... The ring meant so much to me and wearing it is like having mum by my side. My heart was broken to pieces.......... In the next few minutes, I had feelings that it was still on my finger, but each time I looked down, it wasn't there!! And it broke my heart, while the song "How can you mend a broken heart" was playing in my mp3! How much I wished there were shoulders I could lie upon, and I never felt so much that I wanted to get myself drunk!!!! Finally, i took the train home. And as soon as I got off the train, I ran home non-stop!! I went straight to bathroom under shower, took off the drainage cover => wasn't there! I looked at the washing basin, saw something shiny but not sure. When I came back to bedroom to look for a tourch, I FOUND IT ON MY BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!! I was never so relieved like this. I put it on and kisssssssssssed it !!!!! ----> I didn't lose it... 555555555555....... And this changed my mind of having so many martinis to get myself drunk. But still, I got the wine out from the fridge, and Im drinking it now............ Do you feel Im a jerk till now？! My phone is being charged but still switched off. Jacelyn left me a message on msn, thinking that I was kidnapped.... Steph and Phil are at her place. They were worried and Im sorry! I'm drinking now, feeling lucky and unlucky, and vulnerable at the same time. Also, im testing my tolerance of alcohol. Im just finishing the last bit of 3/4 of a bottle !!! Im still not drunk yet................thanks to my Dad.... This was my highlight of today, the last day of the 5th yr of living overseas by myself. I never had so much emotional change like this for anything else. I love Mum and Dad, and my brother. And I don't know how I can cope when anything bad happens to them. In the mean time, I feel so lonely... and I'm NOT as brave as everyone else thinks... I miss you. All I have now is 心理安慰 and 精神寄托: the ring from mum, the 护身符 from Tony, the message that Dad sent me a year ago, the postcard you wrote to me on the train. I'm alone and I'm lonely.....
By the way, when my phone has been fully charged and i swich it on again. There were 3 messages from Stephanie, worring about me, and one voice mail even though she didn't leave anything to say, all I could hear was she typing. They are so lovely friends and I don't know how I can cope when anyone leaves.. By the way, Steph is leaving at the end of this year..... I don't want her to leave...... I wish all of you well !! love. xoxo 为人民服务!!Hahaha.. I had a good day today...
For the last week, I have been spending time in wards, seeing different patients with all sorts of problems. So far, we've seen people with HIV, Hepatitis C, Tuberculosis (infectious), Multi-resistance Staphyloccous Aureus (a difficult to treat and infectious virus), diverticulitis (large intestine disease), obesity (300kgs+), post heart sugery, and diabetes. There were excitements, surprises and prouds. ~
For the first time, I've experienced what I call "emergency", the first time that I feel like being surrounded by "Dr. Bourke" and possibly "McDreamy" (^-^), the first time I've been so close to a highly infectious patient, and the first time I have been recognised as patient's first point of contact and taking the primary responsiblity!!
My supervisor had to attend for outpatient clinic today and leave us in the wards. It would be such a good oppotuniry to attend one with him just to see what it involves. On my way to the ward, I was called up by the supervisor, John, because there were two clients who cant speak English and who needed an interpreter. Well, Chinese is my first language and I would love to be the interpreter! So I went.
John let me do the conselling instead of interpreting what he would say. What a favor to me!! Thank Lord!!!!!! When we arrived, there were two clinets waiting.. I introduced myself and started conselling, with John sitting beside me but he couldn't understand anything.. and I felt sorry for him... The whole process went so well and it took over 1.5 hours!!! A lot of talk apparently. Normally we would do diet history and conselling seperately but today I did the whole process all by myself, and it's in Chinese!! What a challenge!! But I found it difficult at some stage when I was trying to translate all the scientific and nutrition jargons into Chinese.... so difficult but lots of fun!
 Thank John for giving me this oppotinuty. I appreciate it so much!!! Well, having said all that, the best feeling of all is knowing that patients need me, expect me and value me. I am loving what I do -- 为人民服务!!
P.S. we are going to get pagers （BP 机，lol...）!!!! Anyone who's seen "Grey's Anatomy" know they get paged and run into the ward?? Yup, we will have the same thing as them- get paged! Hahaha, it makes me more like a real professional now, and it reminds of Grey's.... ^-^
第二天。。
今天接触了两个比较特殊的病人，一个同时患有艾滋，丙型肝炎（都是经血液传播）和脑炎，一个是肺结核患者（空气传播），他住在隔离病房，因此所有“武装”都用上了，出病房以后真是后怕。。医院太危险！！ 实习第一天
实习第一天，上午讲要领，下午进病房。都还没搞清楚医院里的人群结构就开始进入正常工作了，着实让我有种没摸清头脑但又初生牛犊不怕虎的感觉。 营养师的办公室里特别安静，反而是到了病房区，护士站的时候，才看到好些个医生护士，个个忙得不可开交，突然觉得我的工作好轻松。 今天感觉最兴奋的是经历了一次不同寻常的心跳。在看一个病人的medical record的时候，监视屏幕上一个病人的心跳异常，急促的警报声响让一个忙碌中的护士站顿时安静下来，所有人驻足并注视那屏幕，在场的医生也立即上前几步看个究竟。我当时就在屏幕旁边，莫名地有些紧张。偷偷回头看了一下，当时在场的有个十来个医生和护士，所有人都朝一个方向注视，都不知道接下来会发生什么事。那情景让我想起了Grey's Anatomy里的情景，紧张，刺激和兴奋。。。好在那病人没什么事，几秒钟以后心跳回复正常。。。短短几秒钟，不寻常的小插曲。 接下来的一个月见到的病人大多都是有心脏病的和胃管喂养的病人(就是拿一管子插到胃里或小肠里）。听supervisor强调进特殊病房（比如有传染或细菌感染的）要全副武装，外套手套和口罩，能带的都带上，说的我鸡皮疙瘩掉一地，想想在医院工作还真是危险。。。以后锻炼够了还是不在医院的好，心里踏实。。。 我的supervisor和其他营养师人都特别好，在那儿一点儿也没觉得受约束，希望能从他们那里学到不少东西。 我期待接下来的每一天都有不一样的生活经历！ 终于要考试了！！
猫家学习的这两个星期真是度日如年，从早到晚notes 和 textbook 看了一遍又一遍，每天都期待考试那天赶紧来，可时间走的比蜗牛还慢~~ 于是我赖床，做蛋糕，逛超市，看碟，给朋友和妈妈打电话，早早就睡觉，幻想假期该怎么玩。。。。。结果都无济于事。。。 不过总算是熬到了今天，明天迎接第一个考试，兴奋ing ….. *-*
在考试前的这个晚上，我恐怕还得用来背书。。呵呵。。。总有那么些东西不想看，就把它留在最后，不过那些东西看起来太。。。annoying 了，要不我也给你看看？！~ 也算是再帮我复习一次。。(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……
你不用和我一样紧张啦，我不会要求你把它们记下来的~ 呵呵。。
NATUALLY OCCURING TOXICANTS
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Seafood poisoning
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看起来确实不少哦。。。这才只是两个lecture的内容！！ 不好意思因为都是英文的，等考完试以后有时间的话我再注上中文翻译，这样大家也都能学习一下。我把这个放在这儿，除了帮我再复习一次之外，还有一个目的就是让大家了解一下普遍食物中的自然毒素和它们对人体的危害。大家都听说过没煮熟的豆角有毒吧？恩，没错，答案就在这里啦~ 不过这些毒素大多都是通过简单的加工（比如蒸煮）就可以去除的，所以大可不必担心~~
考试的日子终于来了！同时意味着我离我的凯恩斯之旅更近了! hahahahha !!!
BAXIA！ Graduated from TAFE!!Hip Hip Hooray! Hip Hip Hooray!!
 Yes! We happily graduated from TAFE today!
Cookery class, done at TAFE, is part of the Food Service Management. It is basically cooking for commercial purposes. For the last 8 weeks, we routinely went to TAFE at Sydney north shore on Fridays, with a Chef’s box, which seems familiar to everyone on the street. By this, I mean I was asked by so many people, like ”Are you a chef?” Apparently the answer is “No”! LOL….
One class session takes 5 and half hours, with 15 minutes break at half-way. Yes, it sounds a lot tiring, but when we get busy, we can’t feel anything. Good moments have always got to be “presentation time”, when we finally got to EAT. My favorite dish, as I mentioned earlier, is Poached Pear In Red Wine.
In terms of what we do, basically, each group prepares three or four dishes, including one dessert, with different modifications such as low salt, low sodium and gluten free. There will always be a group doing the “Control” dish, and that is always the first one gone on the table, simply because it tastes the best. HaHa… Then we taste each of the dishes, evaluating them in terms of taste, appearance and nutrition, etc.
The assignment for this course is really entertaining, and yet costly. You may wonder why it’s costly. Well, the assignment is to choose a lacto-ovo vegetarian recipe, cook it and get it tasted by three people with feedback, and modify it, cook the modified one again and get it re-tasted, and finally analyze the nutrition aspect of the dish. To do this, I had to buy all of the ingredients so many times, and cook a whole lot of it. Mind you my recipe involved cheese, eggs, almonds, rockets, mandarin and raspberries. Unfortunately, I didn’t have enough friends to EAT the food for me, and I had to call Wena to come over. I always wished my friends to be here so that they could eat all my food…. Yeah, it’s a pity you are not here, hehehe… Oh, this is the photo of the dish I cooked for my assignment, below. It’s called Mediterranean bread bake with mandarin-raspberry salad.
Today was the last day of TAFE. As usual, we cooked our side dishes and deserts, which we knew we would be having for dinner tonight, and we had a BBQ outside. Tables were set up while we were cooking. We were so excited this is over so that we won’t be going home late at night on Fridays.
Overall, participating in cookery classes was very beneficial and enjoyable. At least I have once experienced as a chef! Hahaha …
My real Graduation is coming up on next Friday, and I’m flying to Auckland on Wednesday. Can’t wait to see my friends over there. Can’t wait to meet my parents with Graduation gown. Can’t wait to celebrate!!!
See you, Auckland, soon…..
Proud Touch with the Torch
I have NEVER thought I would be in any close distance to the Olympic Torch! Guess what. It was in my hands TODAY!!
Yes! We were at Canberra today at the Torch Delay. We planned this journey a few days ago and it seemed to me “a must do” coz (1) I have never been involved in any activities, which I wanted to, in such a close relation to Beijing Olympic Games; and (2) Canberra is the only one stop in Oceania for the Game 2008.
It all started last nigh at around11pm. We couldn’t get on the bus so we drove. Later we met two other cars carrying friends of Annie’s brothers’. Then we took off.
路上一共停下来休息了两次，所以大概到3点钟才到Canberra city center. 令人惊讶的是，来的早的人已经排在路边，挥着国旗，在欢迎更多的朋友加入。鸣笛声与欢呼声立即将我们融入了保护奥运圣火的队伍！把车停在casino停车场之后就开始找圣火传递的起点，有一个人做“导游”，却总是带我们绕圈圈，因此在大半夜4点钟，我们也不知不觉接受了沿途欢迎新队友的任务。我们队伍里也有一面国旗，每次有车经过的时候就会用力挥动几下，配合的人会随之欢呼，也有人根本不理睬，后来一看他们是当地出租车司机，算了，不带他们玩儿。就这样，我们走了近半个小时小时才走到圣火传递的起点：和解广场。 那时上午5点钟。。。
越来越多的人聚集到这里，有人开始派发小国旗和脸贴，我也从此不再两手空空。。。
在离我们不远的地方看见有人拿着蓝色的旗子，开始还以为是护送圣火的旗，因为护送队穿的衣服也是同样的蓝色。后来仔细一看才知道，那是搞藏独的队！不出我们所料，有藏独的人要捣乱！于是我们的小队长，Annie的哥哥，毫不犹豫地就冲藏独队伍“进攻”了。。。 具体也不知道他们到底做了些什么。。 只看见藏独的队伍不一会儿就转移阵地了。。 看来还是我们团结的中国人有力量!!
我们一直在那儿站着，等着，，，冻着，，，，一个小时，两个小时，，三个小时，，，手也僵了，脚也僵了，鼻涕也快止不住地流了，同时天也亮了。。。越来越多的电台的人开始采访。 北京电视台的那个记着好像还挺紧张的，话筒都差点扔了。他就站在离我不远的地方，所以说没准儿有播他采访录像的时候还能看见我呢，，呵呵~~
拿中国国旗的人不时地会到对面藏独人那边示威，但总是被一个管事儿的人给拉开。听说当时还有人因为示威被逮捕了，我回来一看新闻，的确是，有一个人的脸还被打出血了，看了这个就特别为他们忿忿不平，希望他们能早点被警察释放出来。我们这一边都是拿中国国旗的，所以一直都特别和平！我突然觉得和周围的人一下子就认识了，开始有了共同话题，不过说到底也无非是反藏独。。。
等到脚都没有直觉的时候火炬护卫团过来了，一个人拿火炬，一个人拿火种。听说他们都是从中国武警队伍中挑选出的精英分子，但他们还是被澳洲组委会称为“圣火技术助理人员”。他们穿蓝色队服走在前面，旁边有澳洲警察护卫。在格里芬湖畔的和解广场前，著名的土著青年领袖、２６岁的塔尼娅·梅杰从北京奥组委执行副主席蒋效愚手中接过火炬跑出火炬传递的第一棒。 火炬传递从湖边的和解广场出发，途经战争纪念馆、高等法院、国家图书馆、国会大厦等地，最终到达格里芬湖畔联邦公园著名的88号舞台。我们有幸在途中看到了传递的一幕，心情特别激动。。。 那时觉得奥运圣火已经触手可及。。。圣火继续传递，我们开始向终点进发。。
我们到了终点不一会儿的功夫就看见有的奥运火炬手拿着火炬回来了，他们一下子就被群众包围了，当然还有我。。。哈哈。。就这样，我第一次与奥运火炬零距离接触，心情更加激动了 ！！哇哈哈哈。。。北京啊北京，就算奥运会的时候我不能赶回来，我也不遗憾了，因为有我摸过的火炬会把不灭的奥运圣火，带着我的祝福，传到你那里。。
特别值得一提的是，在圣火到达终点站之前就有好多中国人已经列队等候了，同时他们也在关注藏独队伍的各个行动，并在必要的时候组织他们进入联邦公园。有一个藏独队伍里的人手拿一面西藏旗要进场，你猜怎么样，好几个大小伙子一拥而上，把一面特别大的国旗展开，同时喊着“拿国旗堵他！”“滚！”等等。。果然寡不敌众，那个人灰溜溜就退出去了。。。那时让我觉得中国团结的力量是不容小视的。。。我们提倡“一个中国！”
有了藏独的参与，这次圣火传递也许并不那么完美，但是我们中国人渴望统一与崇尚奥运的精神还是足以保证了圣火传递的顺利进行。
Overall, I did enjoy this journey very much!! It was still like a stream when I woke up on the way back to Sydney. Anyway, it’s a very sweet stream…
GO! BEIJING! GO! CHINA!
中国加油！！！
p.s. the photo of me holding one of the contributing torches will be uploaded sooner after I get from Annie. What a day！
生日的那天，没有生日蛋糕，没有Party, 却收到很多很多甜甜的祝福，所以我一样过的很开心！
那天早上去Car rental company 租了辆 Toyato Corolla Sedan，开回来的时候特别紧张，这可是我有驾照以后第一次独自开车，还是在悉尼！！我形容自己是“初生牛犊不怕虎”。。后来去Wena家接她，然后她就成了我的指路人—帮我看地图，呵呵～～ 她建议我们去ｂｅａｃｈ。 然后off we went．我们先找到了去Bondi beach的路，在到达之前的一个坡上远远就看见了湛蓝的海天相接，心情好的突然飞了起来。。 那里的沙滩是白色的，沙很细，好多人在晒日光浴，在冲浪，在散步，在享受新鲜空气。。。。我和wena也赶快赤脚去感受阳光，沙滩和已经被太阳晒暖的海水。。在海边走着的时候想起了早上出门以前Ｒｕｂｙ发来的邮件：“right now i just want to hold your hand like we used to do, and lough, loudly, with no pressure and only joy....” 我想起了大概三年前和她赤脚走在海边，拉着手，另一只手上还拎着网球拍和鞋子，偶尔还停下来捡拾海水退后留下来的贝壳。。。 又想起和管莉走在Mission bay，手上还握着大大的冰激淋，吃完以后对着大海荡秋千。。。想起这些都好开心。。。好想念。。。
之后去了离Bondi不远的Congee beach。 这个beach的沙滩小一些，同时也给人感觉更安逸些。。。 岸的一边是个公园，远远看过去有好多人在跑步，还有人在遛狗，看着他们，市内的喧嚣便被抛在脑后。。。。 We had fish & chips for our afternoon tea, haha… 待了时间不长太阳就要落山了，我们也离开了Congee….
晚上的计划是看歌剧院的夜景，想法不错，可是．．．．． 不认识路，city的路有好多是单行线，又不能右转，没办法只好一边研究地图一边开车，脑子突然一走神，开进了必须要右转的路线，其实本来应该向左拐的。。。 走着走着，“咚！”。。。撞了！呵呵。。还没反应过来呢，前面红灯，刹车，有人敲窗．． ＂Hi, you just hit my mirror, can you give me your details?＂ 绿灯亮了 “Can I find a place to park first before we discuss this?” “You have to give me your details.” “Was it broken?” “Yes. It’s broken. What’s your driver’s license number? “It’s in my bag, I can’t get it now.” 红灯亮了 “ok. What’s your phone number?” “0424……” 绿灯亮了 “Can I just …. ? (pointing the traffic light)” 我不得不右拐了。。。
我还不相信刚才发生的一幕。。。。脑子里想着那个人说的是不是真的，还有我的车到底有没有蹭掉漆之类的，如果是的话我的押金５００块就没了！！。。。。 我还是找了条小街把车停下来，反光镜的背面被蹭出一个黑色三角形，大晚上的也看不清是不是漆被蹭掉了，不过手摸上去感觉还是挺平的。。。。 后来刚才那个人打电话过来，他是个出租车司机，我说我要看看撞坏的反光镜。开始他还说不来，等了一会儿他车开过来了。我一看，真破了！镜子上一个洞，已经支离破碎，但还没有完全掉下来。。我终于相信了。。。他先把他的details写下来给我，又问我要了驾照号和联系方式，说他老板会联系我。。。 好了，这事一出，悉尼歌剧院夜景也看不了了，说送wena回家，她看我的样子不放心，还是让我送她到火车站，在市中心，结果又是，找了半天才找了可以掉头的路。最后送她到了车站我自己开车回家了。。。 回家之后按wena的建议，拿了块橡皮，试了试，那块黑色的竟然被擦下来了，所以漆是没有蹭掉，我这才松了一口气。。。。 到现在出租车公司还没有给我打电话，不知道他们怎么想怎么处理呢。。。。。
哎，真是难忘的一天，生日 ＋ 初次独自开车 ＋ 撞车 ＋ beach一日游。。。
不过还是挺开心的，哈哈。。。
现在开车小心多了，也进步了不少呢，呵呵~ 那句话说的没错：“Practice makes perfect”！
B'day早上收到妈妈一条短信："小闺女，今天是你的生日，妈妈祝你生日快乐身体健康。你自己卖点好吃的，找个地方玩一玩。我爱你宝贝!"
我这才知道今天是我的生日，阴历的，因为在家的时候家人都是给我过阴历生日，所以到了阳历生日的时候我就能和朋友一起庆祝了。呵呵~~所以我每年都能过两个生日～
过了今天，最晚后天，就２２岁了。。。
今年生日的唯一心愿就是能好好陪妈妈一天！！
为了妈妈，我会爱护自己！！
 妈妈，我爱你！！！ 还有爸爸和弟弟！ mmi...."sexy" back.
Happy Easters to everyone!!
This is my 33rd day in Sydney.
刚刚挂了Wena的电话，她建议我说把这几天来悉尼的“辛酸史”记下来，可是我记忆已经变得模糊了。。。 我想我是幸运的：到悉尼那天有爸爸的朋友接机，在被送到他家落脚之前在Darling Harbor吃了早餐，感受到了悉尼的第一股气息。。 之后的几天都是在伯伯家暂住，我也被邀请参加他家的活动，伯母和Annie妹妹都很热心地向我介绍悉尼，努力使我尽快了解这块新土地。
我觉得wena指的“心酸史”大概是找房子的经历吧。 恩，对于找房子的经历确实有的说。。。时刻盯着论坛和报纸上的招租广告，手里的地图不知道翻过多少遍，电话也不知道打了多少个。在这个过程中，我要感谢伯父伯母和Annie，他们带我到处看房子，着实给了我很多帮助。伯母一直感叹：“原来我不知道，学生找房子竟然这么难”。。。 让我们更为惊讶的是，报纸上登的“客厅招租”竟然是在客厅里用稍比一人高的薄木板隔出来的给“人”住的角落。。。 讲好价钱的房子在第二天似乎是由于已被高价租出，房东的电话从此再也接不通。。。 就在几乎绝望的时候，一个新招租广告登出了。 我看了看地图，在离city很远的地方，但是我还是在地图上找到了坐火车的路线。在矛盾了一夜之后，我第二天还是一大早起来准备坐火车去看房。伯母正好也要带Annie去city, 我很幸运，伯母答应带我去看房子。谢天谢地 这天看的卧室是我所有看过的唯一能见得到阳光的。。 于是我决定就租这里。。 速战速决，下午伯母陪我到超市买了些东西之后就搬进来了。。。 说实话，我从她家搬出来的那天还很恋恋不舍，因为在她家住有种在家的感觉，我知道不是我自己的家，可是他们家庭的温暖确实给了我很多心理安慰。 无论如何，我还是觉得不好意思占用Annie的房间那么久。。。
从3月24号起，我又开始了独立的生活。。
4天以后，Wena从奥克兰飞过来，来加入我。她来了以后我突然变得好开心。她先暂住我这里，白天我们一起给她找房子。顶着烈日，我们走了一个又一个Block。。。 3天之后，我们找到了相对满意的地方，她决定住下了。现在，她住西边，我住南边，不过我们会偶尔在学校见面。 I have to say that Wena and I have had a really good time together, being supportive to each other in this strange and big city! It’s so good to have you here, Wena ^-^
第一次坐火车 一天下午，从学校卖完书以后想尝试坐火车回家。一个中国学生在车站急匆匆地告诉我该怎么坐车以后，我急匆匆地跑向站台，火车的轰隆声和行人急促的步伐使我第一次感受到Sydney 的节奏。望着铁路线通向的前方，我怀疑地问自己：它要把我送到哪里？？我仔细听着火车里的广播，记着那个中国学生的嘱咐：记着我要下车的前一站的站名。我下车了，却找不到出口了。。。。绕了一圈才走出来。。。。 我左边背包，右边背着刚买的很沉的书，顶着还没下山却仍然炙热的太阳，不知道在想着什么。。 突然接到爸爸一个电话，接通之后听到的是爸爸亲切的称呼：“娟娟。。。 你干嘛呢？”我终于忍不住了。我哭了。 说“我刚从火车上下来，正在回家的路上。” “啊？你还要做火车上学啊？” “。。。。。。” 我在电话里哭的时候从来不会让爸爸听见，所以我把电话拿开很远，哭过以后再调整语气，在他“喂”“喂”过两三次之后才回话---- 让他感觉是信号不好。。。我想我的心在那一刻在几天的压力下终于被爸爸的来电释放了。。。
First impression on Sydney Uni. International Orientation day was the first day I physically got an idea and a picture of this University. It is historic, attractive, and BIG! The first time I was amazed by it was when students stood up, showing where they are from, when the International Officer called out the name of their countries. Not surprisingly, when she called up "China", more than 20% of the audiences stoop up at once. All the sudden, the Great Hall boiled!! No wonder why the officer put "China" at the very end.
During that three International Orientation days I met people from different nations, been guided for campus tour, and luckily enough, I got all preparations done, just waiting for the "school" to start... ^^
Down to business I think its time to talk about my studies. I have 5 subjects to take for the first semester, which sounds stressful. But it has been bringing me lots of excitement since the first day I attended the class. The Master of Nutrition and Dietetics is surely going to bring up real professionals and I know that I have made the right decision for myself to do what I like. ^^
-- Food service management Right from the beginning, in the first week, we were geared up as (learner) Chefs, each having a chef’s tool box with a chef’s knife, a paring knife, a whisk, a wooden spoon, some tea-towls, and tasting spoons. What sucks, though, is we have to wear white shirt, black trousers (no jeans) AND the ugly chef’s boots!!! You’ll never have an idea of what I would look like wearing a pair of chef’s boots!! Oh, basically, its BLACK and NO STYLE!!
Anyway, we went to TAFE, an institution for skilled education. We each got a white hat and an apron, which made us more look like a chef when put them on. Hehe… The first class was basically cutting and chopping. Veges were all provided and we were taught how to cut different veges. I know everyone knows how to cut celery or a carrot. But I was surprised by the fact that the (real) chef cuts different veges into different but very regular forms, and that’s the way how it should be done in food service! After we had all the veges prepared, we put them into a pot to make a minestrone—a kind of vege soup. While we were cooking our own soup, the teacher made some garlic bread for us, so…. you probably already know what im going to say: we had our own soup with garlic bread as that day’s dinner. My soup won praise from the Chef, so I was happy. hehe
The second class was really cool!! The teacher was a relatively young male. He was just to place the previous chef for one day. He taught us a different dish which was much more interesting than the last one. We made Trout en Papillote (=baked trout), Duchess Potatoes(smashed and then baked potatoes), Vegetable Panache (stir fried veges)，Poached pear in red wine served with Sauce Anglaise (creamy sauce), and chicken & sweet corn soup. As the names are all in French, I can’t pronounce them well. Anyway, they tasted fantastic, especially the Poached pear in red wine! I love the presentation of this dish. By the way, the teacher rated my presentation the top one. lol….. it’s easy to do and great as a dessert. I must share the recipe with you, allow me!
Ingredients 1 pear 100ml red wine 75g sugar 1 clove 1/4 lemon, squeezed 1/2 cinnamon quill 100ml water Method 1. Peel the pears and remove the core. 2. Produce stock syrup with all the remaining ingredients and submerge the pears and cover with a baking paper. This prevents evaporation of steam. 3. Bring to the boil and poach gently by turning the heat down. Test the degree of doneness with a fork. Cool in the syrup, then serve with ice cream.
YUMMY!!! I suggest you try this at home. It makes a really great dessert. ENJOY!!
Also included in Food Service Management is menu planning. So far, I found it really boring!!
Apart from this, we have Communication (Education and Consultation), Food Science and Nutritional Science, and Nutritional Assessment (This also involves a lot of practical work). For the first lab of Nutritional Assessment, we were asked to keep a food diary with recording of weight of EVERY FOOD GOING INTO MOUTH for 4 days. Data was entered into Foodwork and…dada….your nutritional values are all worked out for you. According to my result, I had consumed too much Sodium (salt) in my diet. I must watch my Sodium intake from now on. So…I think this is interesting, too.
More for next year, we will be taking a 20-week Clinical Placement out of Uni. We will be practicing at the real sites of clinics, hospitals, and food service industries. I think this is cool! Only that I don’t know where I’ll be sent to, could be out of Sydney….. Then after that, we come back to Uni. to conduct a small research…..
Well, all of the above is about my studies in the following two years. It could be a bit boring for you, but I want to share it with you, my friends, at least to let you know what I’ll be doing in these two years. Hehe….
Oh, another two things I forgot to mention. 1. My favorite magazine becomes the one that a teacher most recommends. Hahaha.. I am so happy about this, cos now I wont need to worry abt feeling guilty when I want to take some off studies to read my magazines. lol….. 2. My lecturer said: “Take shopping at supermarket as a professional development.” ^-^ Like my BF said, 我以后就跟超市混了，呵呵
Well, seriously, enough about my studies…..
I miss my friends in Auckland, I miss “Grandma” Audrey, I miss the (not really) smaller campus of Auckland Uni…. I miss my family…. I miss you all !! I am sure I will be good and I’ll make people who love me proud!! Believe me! ^0^
Should you have need any dietary advices and request for great recipes please do not feel hesitate in contacting me.
Lots & lots …. of love
思念是一种病当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头 一辈子有多少的来不及 发现已经失去 最重要的东西 恍然大悟早已远去 为何总是在犯错之后 才肯相信错的是自己 他们说这就是人生 试著体会试著忍住眼泪 还是躲不开应该有的情绪 我不会奢求世界停止转动 我知道逃避一点都没有用 只是这段时间里尤其在夜里 还是会想起难忘的事情 我想我的思念是一种病 久久不能痊愈 当你在穿山越岭的另一边 我在孤独的路上没有尽头 时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸 却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息 汲汲营营 忘记身边的人需要爱和关心 藉口总是拉远了距离 不知不觉无声无息 我们总是在抱怨事与愿违 却不愿意回头看看自己 想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情 也许是上帝给我一个试炼 只是这伤口需要花点时间 只是会想念过去的一切 那些人事物会离我远去 而我们终究也会远离 变成回忆 oh 思念是一种病 oh 思念是一种病 多久没有说我爱你 多久没有拥抱你所爱的人 当这个世界不在那黱美好 只有爱可以让他更好 我相信一切都来得及 别管那些纷纷扰扰 别让不开心的事停下了脚步 就怕你不说就怕你不做 别让遗憾继续一切都来得及
Coffee?Did you know that Turkish law makes it legal for a women to divorce her husband if he fails to provide her with her daily quota of coffee?
--- <<BAZAAR>> Aug. 2007 We Are Never Far Apart !!
★ Asako★ 23:28:01
7月15日 有你真好
今天送走了小玄子,在睡梦中打开手机 "大宝 我现在在登机口,等我到了给你打电话 你好好休息 春节回来再陪你好好玩!MUA!" 看了一点睡意都没有了 心里觉得空空的 这么多年 你在身边陪伴的时间总是那么短 你在你的MSN上写我很不容易 其实你才不容易 自己一个人在外面 有没好好照顾自己 亲爱的 很抱歉不能一直陪着你
你说这次回来和每次对我的感觉都不同 觉得我长大了很多 是真的吗 我却觉得在你面前我永远都是个孩子 习惯了你对我的关心和疼爱 其实我都知道 很多东西你比我更喜欢 但因为我喜欢 你就给了我 以前总是对你耍脾气 动不动就说让你伤心的话 宝贝 真的对不起 谢谢你原谅我的任性
这次同学聚会 是这次你回来我们的第一次见面 你的笑容好开心 你说我很自信 你说在场的人都用欣赏的眼光看我 你拉着我的手笑的很欣慰 你在他身边的样子好幸福 真的希望你们一直走下去 你那么善良 我真的不想让你受一点伤害 昨晚看你眼泪在眼睛里 我比你更难受 但如果我哭了你会更伤心 对吗
昨天在我们店里给你化妆的时候 眼泪差点就要流下来 不知道为什么 呵呵 又犯小孩子脾气了吧我 开始还开玩笑说明天走的时候你可不许哭 说着说着 自己就难过的快哭出来 还要你安慰我 现在你有了你生活中的另一半 我也放心了 我以前有时候很生气你对他好 很介意他会比我重要 不过现在想通了 这是不一样的 看好他 看好你们 这也是你最大的心愿了吧 你们要好好的 我祝福你们 什么时候能实现四个人一起的愿望呢? 你和你的 我和我的 宝彪
昨天和你一起睡 以前每次都是我困了然后你在一边默默的等我睡醒 昨天是这么多年来头一次一起睡觉呢 同床共枕 哈哈 感觉好温馨 等你回来还要一起睡!嘿嘿 抱着你的小肉胳膊 那你敢不再我刚说完话的时候小呼噜就打起来吗 嘻嘻 幸福
宝贝 我好爱你 不管在做什么 都知道你会支持着我 这种感觉真好 不再惧怕 这么多年 最想对你说的话 还是一句"有你真好!" `````````````````````````````````````````````
这是小柜子在小玄子离开家那天的日记,她推荐这首: Tonight I Feel Close To You..
小柜子和小玄子的故事从初中开始,两个性格截然不同的女孩已经携手一起走过了八个春秋. 在她们相互认识的时候，小柜子有男孩子的爽朗性格,而小玄子是班里公认的乖乖女. 在初二升级换了新教室以后,小柜子和小玄子被安排在同桌.小柜子的关心和帮助让小玄子在并不熟悉的新城市找到了温暖. 她们交换礼物,从此”正式”成为好朋友. 那时正流行戴在手指头上的袖珍表,看她喜欢,小玄子买了一个送给她.小柜子则送了白雪公主身边的一个小矮人,黄色的小帽子,黄色的衣服.她们起初以通信的方式谈心,把嘴上说不出的话都写下来.后来便无话不谈.
小柜子对穿衣打扮有自己独到的见解,在小玄子眼中,她总走在时尚前端。从不会看见周围有任何人会和小柜子撞衫,她即使很喜欢一件衣服但假如很普遍她宁可不去选.她有好多衣服周围朋友都很喜欢,但她绝对不会容忍答应别人和她买同样的衣服,惟独小玄子可以. 一次,在争得小柜子同意之后,两人穿着类似的粉色上衣和牛仔短裙上街,只不过小柜子比小玄子的更短~ 小玄子最喜欢和小柜子逛街，似乎是因为小柜子总会给她挑选漂亮衣服！
她们之间也会有矛盾，但她们有自己解决的办法。 上学时的一个冬天，不知道什么原因两人竟然好几天不说话。那天突然下雪，雪下得好大积得好厚。两人不约而同来到操场，却都不愿先开口说话。小柜子提议“咱们在对方脸上涂一把雪，忘掉所有的不开心，好不好？” 不等小玄子点头，两人都已经抓了一大把雪在手上，朝着对方的脸上重重一抹。那天好冷，但好开心！
长大了一些，话也少了些。有了矛盾，似乎总没有那么快解决。两人会面对面坐在麦当劳，把吃冰激凌剩下的纸筒撕成一小片一小片。。。也会在公车最后一排，同时看着窗外不说话。一向都是先开口的小柜子也不知道该怎么打破僵局，干脆把脑袋靠过来，倚在小玄子肩上。这是她们讲和的方式。
从初中的学校分开两年以后，小玄子离开家开始留学的生活。她离开以后和小柜子联系的并不频繁，但在她有心事的时候，就总想听小柜子那孩子般的声音。两人在电话里“喂！喂！”半天，似乎能打通电话是那么不容易的事，又是好开心的事。每次通电话之后小玄子的耳朵都是通红并发烫的，小柜子的一定也是吧。。
小柜子在国内总是给小玄子出难题。她在国内调皮到让妈妈担心。妈妈在电话里嘱咐小玄子，希望能够让她说服这个任性的孩子。无论小玄子如何苦口婆心，小柜子最后还是坚持己见。其实小柜子最爱妈妈。
小玄子每次回国看见小柜子都是新的。她每次都和之前不一样。一次比一次更漂亮，更成熟，更自信，更让小玄子从心底佩服。最近的一次同学聚会上，小玄子被眼前的小柜子怔住了，她从没看见过那么自信满满，那么落落大方的小柜子出现在她一向缺席的同学聚会上。在场的人都投来欣赏的目光，那时的小玄子比小柜子还要高兴好多好多倍。有知己和男朋友左右相伴，小玄子成了当晚世界上最幸福的人。
小柜子经过努力，最终找到了喜欢的工作。她对香水情有独衷，对此小玄子也给过她很多支持。用她的话说，她现在是店里香水区的老大！小玄子听了觉得好高兴，迫不及待要告诉周围所有人。在飞走之前，小玄子去了小柜子工作的地方。小玄子立即成了小柜子的化装模特。小玄子看着她，表情特别认真。 小柜子：“明天上飞机不许哭啊！” 。。。 “我化不下去了。” “怎么了？” 。。。 “我想哭！” “快给我化完了啦。还说让我不要哭呢。。” 。。。 那天，小柜子给小玄子完整地化了一次妆，她得意地要周围每个人都看。
晚上小玄子因为太想小柜子，就叫她过来一起睡，两人聊到3点半。小柜子睡里边，小玄子睡外边。胳膊相互挽着，真的很不想分开！。。。
对于小玄子，小柜子永远都是个孩子。她记得小玄子说的每一句话， 她说对她是种鼓励。她不能没有小玄子，小玄子也更舍不得离开她。
在她最任性最堕落的时候，她没有离开 在她最需要朋友谈心的时候，她没有离开 在她感觉一无所有的时候，还能感觉她的存在 两个女孩就这样一路携手走过来，共同诠释了友情的真谛！
小玄子一直有一个愿望，一个有小柜子的愿望！一个一定能实现的愿望！！
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P.S. 最后一次在必胜客餐厅。。
"我想吃这个" "这个我会做" "这个呢?" "简单，等下次回来做给你吃" "还有这个" "好好好！" （她从包里掏出一个小本本，特认真地写着。。） "你写什么呢" （边写边念：） "小~玄~子~答~应~我~回~来~以~后~给~我~做~： 1．。。。 2．。。。"
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~END~ The Sweetest PROMISE!!To My Dearest 彪:
When there were times for worry
Fears came alone
When you came to me
They're all gone
Months, hours, minutes, even seconds, whenever you are around
Smiles are there always
So are laughs,
brighter and clearer than ever
Toleration, bravery, strength, faithfulness and trust...
lie in you and me,
building up for LOVE
-- a sweetest promise
for that stays with me, for lifetime long.
From your Dearest ME !!
 Tomorrow is another day.好长时间都没有来过了,似乎是因为太忙,没有时间来打理~ 呵呵~
开学已经近一个月了,现在自己住在离City两个Stage远的地方,关上窗以后的房间比我想象的还要安静好几倍,连呼吸声都听的很清楚...晚上关灯以后躺在床上更感觉不出自己是在什么地方,只觉得是躺在个黑乎乎的密闭空间... 我不怎么和房东说话,不喜欢和她同时出现在厨房里--她做饭的时候我只好等着,饿着肚子...
还好附近有个很大的ShoppingMall,平时回来早的时候就去里面逛一圈,顺便在超市买点东西. 还有一个收获就是发现好几个店在招工,有卖保健品的,也有做咖啡和Bakery的...正好我最近也想找份Part-time job 做呢,就这样,我给每一个在招工的店都递了份简历~ 希望会有好运气! ~
这次假期在北京度过了一个很温暖的冬天,因为每次出门身边都有"暖宝宝"(小名冬冬^-^). 他带我几乎吃遍了北京所有的小吃,现在说起来我也算是喝过豆汁儿了(很难喝的说),呵呵~~~ 还有我觉得到目前为止我吃过最好吃的馄饨......Mmmmm..... 想起来就流口水..... :P
不得不提的是,我在继小学最后一次玩麻将的近10年后又摸到了麻将牌.... 这个春节我算是把这好几年的麻将都玩过来了,也听说好多对我来说很新鲜的词,比如"会儿" "提搂"...好多好多呢,确实很好玩儿,也很上瘾的说. (我接连玩了两天呢~) 哈哈~~
又一次和爸爸妈妈还有"暖宝宝"分开要一年时间,刚来的几天还真有点不适应... 晚饭的时候一到家就有妈妈早准备好的饭菜;早上一想来就想到又能马上和大宝见面...可现在只能在电话里聊天...我习惯在打电话的时候闭着眼睛,这让我觉得他们离我并不远... 挂掉电话之后又开始自己独立的生活,跟自己说要再坚强一点,无论做什么事情,他们会一直是我坚强的后盾!
最近也开始考虑到将来找工作的问题,其实想在明确将来的一个方向.上大学两年了,我一直都不知道我学出来以后能做什么.就最近几天我才觉得自己真正确定了将来发展的方向,而且无论如何也要向着那个目标努力! 加油! ~~
最后在这里想谢谢周围的朋友们,有她们在才会使我在这里生活的更充实,更快乐! ^-^
P.S.今天被感情的刺扎了一下,很疼!! 希望明天会消~
TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY !!
害怕......闹钟响过之后,我再次进入了梦乡.......
可是接下来的发生的事情让我觉得恐惧.....
在梦里:
第一个,爱我的人,走了.......永远的走了.......他留下一封信,想要和我说些什么,我没能看完,只记得我一直在哭,一直在哭......
第二个,我爱的人,走了.......永远的走了.......留下的是和他一起成长的回忆,他是我的骄傲,我的感情寄托,也是我的影子.......我一直在哭,一直在哭......
梦醒的时候,隐约有一点解脱,庆幸那是个梦!! ......
可是梦里的真实,又让我浑身无力.......
那感觉,却像是我获得新生,让我更懂得珍惜! ......
我深深地呼了一口气 ......
爱我别走 !!!
终于病了！一向身体健康的我,终于病了！！！
昨天外面还是一样刮着春天里的寒风,可喜的是还能看见大太阳.可是太阳的暖抵不过风的寒冷,我本来想穿件羽绒服出门，结果朝楼下一看,人家穿的都是半截袖... 无语ing... 我最后还是打消了穿"棉袄"的想法~
结果怎样-- 委屈了我的胃---胃寒犯了！！（老毛病了．．）
到了家里无论怎么喝热水暖胃都不管用,疼到连直立都困难！！！
以前胃疼的时候连药都不吃的，胃暖了以后自然就好了，或者过夜．可昨天疼到不得不吃药～其实更主要还是心理会起作用吧.我这样想．．
吃药以后我就躺下了～ 比起弯腰站立，躺在床上感觉自然好一些．．
之后就睡着了．．
zzzzzＺＺ．．．
今天早上起床以后头竟然疼起来了！！在我记忆里,我最后一次头疼还是在小学的时候....
胃还是像刚昨天吃过药一样不舒服．．．
做完３个小时实验以后,我似乎已经没有力气可以再做什么．．．为了照顾我可怜的胃，中饭也只能吃流食．．吃过饭以后更觉得困，当时真想有张床美美地睡上一觉,或者有个肩膀可以依靠．．
一直到下午，脑袋像灌了铅一样沉，身子也没了重心，风吹向哪边我身子也被吹到哪边去了．．幅度再大点的没准路人能以为我喝醉了！！
我踱步走回家，到家以后就把身子摊床上了．．．．头晕＋胃疼＝难受！！！
人生病的时候总是会格外想念亲人或者朋友吧．．我今天是体会到了．．之前没经历也只是想过而已．．所以之前一直特想生场大病（不要很严重但需要卧床的那种），以为那样就可以有亲人在身边照顾，寸步不离，可以每天和他们在一起．
今天才发现，那是多愚蠢的想法－－假如我在这里生病，我也只有自己照顾自己，因为想念的人不在这里！！．．．
爸爸脚疼留院检查的时候，我知道情况不严重，但是我想爸爸在当时一定一定特别想念我和弟弟．．就在那几天，我几乎天天给爸爸打电话．．．电话里爸爸的声音告诉我，尽管看不到人，听到我的声音他一样开心！！
我的胃病是到新西兰以后才得的．．．自从爸爸妈妈知道以后他们就很担心，在回北京的时候带我做了胃镜(无痛的)．在那以后胃又疼过几次，尽管我已经很小心．．再后来每次爸妈问到我的时候我也只能说＂没疼过＂．．
＂我不是要故意骗你们，是我不想让你们担心．．＂
 我，又开始想念了．．．．．
一会儿继续睡觉吧，也许会在梦里看见他们~~~
 难念的经家家有本难念的经!!!
看着阿姨伤心我也替她难过起来了....
阿姨的经历,讲述一个女人十年的坚强,
与儿子的相依为命....
对儿子的满怀希望....
以及,对未来无忧无虑的生活的憧憬....
阿姨其实特别喜欢笑的,
她最喜欢看喜剧,
有一次跟她一起笑到肚子疼.
可今天却听见她 哭了...
当时心也为她揪在一起...
出来以后她对我笑,
脸上还挂着晶莹的泪滴..
她说,还好有我可以听她倾诉,
可我,却不知该说些什么
.......
一个月以后我就回家了,
我所有东西也会从这里搬出去,
再回来的时候也许不能再和她住一起了..
我倒是很希望阿姨能尽早和儿子一起搬去澳洲,
没了什么牵挂,
大概也可以解脱了吧
......
真希望那个人别再来给阿姨添麻烦!
今晚又下雨了!!!
在我记忆里,雨声怎么从来没有那么好听过...
而且,黑夜里的雨后没有彩虹...
sO, 我爱晴天!!!
 哭吧...哭吧~哭吧~尽情地哭吧~任性地哭吧~
哭到要雨水都认输!
哭到要太阳来哄才罢休!
雨都下了这么多天,也该轮到你了.
所以......哭吧,我陪你 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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